To be completely honest with myself, a tiny, miniscule part of me is relieved. I won't have to wonder, or whine, or worry anymore.
It doesn't matter if I was expecting it - I saw it coming.
But it doesn't even matter!
It still sucks.
Funny, today was right on the dot for the 3rd-month-since-he-left mark.
But okay, I won't say anymore about it. I'll get over it, and I'll suffer it all in silence from this point on.